Okay – so apparently I am not ready for a daily blog. Or at least I wasn’t. I’m starting a new coaching program and before I start working with clients I’m going through the program myself. For the program I had to come up with 2 personal and 2 professional goals that I want to accomplish in the next 21 days, and I have a coach that I must call every day for a 15 minute call to discuss the progress I’ve made on my goals. Writing a daily blog did not make the list, but writing the most difficult chapter of my book did.
One of my longer term professional goals is to publish my book in 2017 – or at least finish it by 2017 and have it ready for publishing. I started this blog so I could start getting some of my ideas down, and I have created a list of chapter ideas… but I’m having a challenge with where to start. Do I start at the beginning? If so where is the beginning? Do I start at the end? If so where is the end? Do I try to get everything in one book or do I have more than one book to write? These are the questions that have kept me from actually starting my book.
The more I’ve thought about these questions, the more I’ve realized that I just need to start somewhere. And I’ve decided that the best place to start is with he hardest chapter to write. I have to write the chapter about the day Scott died. I know that writing that chapter is going to lead me to writing about the days and months leading up to the day he died. I know that writing about those days are going to lead me to writing about the years leading up to the last months. There is a part of me that does not want to acknowledge how long that part of my life was in decay. Writing about this is going to bring up a lot of things that still need to be healed. But they cannot be healed until I allow them to come up.
I know that it is time for me to bring these up and heal them. I recently attended a webinar about how to write a book that will impact the lives of others, and one of the things mentioned was having your target audience and knowing exactly who would be helped by reading your story. I just found out that the husband of one of my very dear friends passed away suddenly and unexpectedly last week at the age of 49. My story can help her. This part of my story especially.
Now I just need to start writing it.